At this point, why should Christianity even be worthy of my consideration?My true bias is that I've shown Christianity extensive favoritism, continuing to seriously investigate it long after I would have given up on any other religion. I haven't even bothered to look closely at Jainism, Hinduism, Bahá'í or Zoroastrianism. I've essentially concluded that they're false without giving them so much as a glance. But that's just the beginning: by one estimate, there are approximately 10,000 distinct religions in the world, including 150 with at least a million followers. Why is it that I haven't examined them one by one? Why haven't I studied Ayyavazhi, Druze, Konkokyo, Quimbanda, or Thelema? For that matter, why haven't I studied extinct religions such as ancient Norse mythology? It's because I have no reason to believe they're true... but the same could be said for Christianity. I'm using a double standard, one that works out massively in Christianity's favor.
Norse gods have the additional advantage of looking really damn cool. |
Oh, man, do I know what you mean. I abandoned Christianity earlier this year after 26 years, most of those as a worship ministry leader in two different churches (different cities.) I currently practice an agnostic Buddhism, for lack of a better term - with a focus on living in the present moment, accepting life for exactly what it is right now, and treating every person with love and compassion. Simple as that (though often not easy.)
ReplyDeleteMy exploration of my faith, leading to my abandonment, was thorough and is ongoing - and one of the things that keeps me reading and researching is my habitual shame response when I *indulge* in my non-Christian *religion*. No other faith would get a small fraction of this sort of time, but that feeling of God watching over my shoulder and keeping track of my sins until I use the ol' bar of soap (1 John 1:9) is so pervasive and so deeply habitual. Most often I am at peace in my freedom from that sort of self-condemnation, but daily I struggle to remember why I left that behind and, well, just live in the now. Cheers.
I, too am in the process of de-converting and can identify with both of you. One of the things that still weighs heavily on my mind is the "magical" moments I experienced, particularly "words of knowledge" that seemed very specific to me, as well as one incident when I was "slain in the Spirit" and experienced "holy laughter," saw colourful lights that I thought were Jesus, etc. I was sceptical and unemotional even when I was a devout Christian and went through countless worship services where everyone seemed to be in the Spirit except me. But on that one occasion, I was convinced I had finally found it! These 2 instances keep me going back... I really like your blog by the way.
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Things like being "slain in the spirit" are all about the power that suggestion holds over the human mind. Mentalist Derren Brown has a TV special in which he teaches a layman to pose as a faith healing preacher and work seeming miracles by purely natural means. This portion of Ebon Musings' essay "A Ghost in the Machine" also explains the physical basis of religious experiences.
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